I have been a stay-at-home mom for almost five years. In that time, I have been a writer, a blogger, a small-business owner, a student, and now life has come full circle back to writing and blogging. My husband always tries to remind me that above everything else, I am a wife and a mother with which I wholeheartedly agree. Sometimes he gets frustrated because I’m always adding more to my plate, though. So when is enough, enough?
I am the type of person who thrives on staying busy. I love having something to work towards, even if that is just getting my daily to-do list complete. And, I am working on personal development in my professional career. Having three very young children at home keeps me very busy … still, when I don’t have other work to do I find myself looking for opportunities.
So I find myself at an in-between stage in my life right now fumbling with the very evasive question that many working mothers find themselves asking: do I find other work or do I just be a mom?
For two years I ran my own preschool from home, which I closed when my third daughter was born. I planned to reopen this summer, but I have kind of enjoyed not having that commitment during these past few months. At the same time, I also feel as though I’m not living up to my full potential. I want to continue to develop myself professionally, but at what cost?
At this very moment, as I write this article, two of my children are napping but my oldest one is sitting on my bed watching a show on her Kindle. The mommy guilt is eating away at me. Does she feel like I’m abandoning her? Ignoring her? Does she think that whatever I’m doing on the computer is more important than her? I work hard to make sure that I do the majority of my work while the kids are asleep or at preschool, but sometimes that just isn’t possible.
In the end, this is how I see it: Yes, my daughters watch more than their fair share of television or end up playing (read: screaming at each other) independently. On the other hand, they are seeing a mother who not only loves them unconditionally but also works hard to help provide for the family. They are seeing that they can be more than a wife and mother- they can be entrepreneurs, too. They are seeing dedication, perseverance, and time management. So yes, I work from home and oftentimes that means forgoing playing Barbie or doing the same puzzle 25 times in a row. But, doing something of my own makes me happy and gives my children a positive role model.
So bring it on world. I’m back. And I’ve got three little girls with entrepreneurship in their souls coming your way.